Jimmy Buffet... yay..

What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems?
I'm not okay
I told you time and time again you sing the words but don't know what it means
I'm not okay
To be a joke and look, another line without a hook
I held you close as we both shook for the last time take a good hard look!

I'm not okay
I'm not okay
I'm not okay
You wear me out

Forget about the dirty looks
The photographs your boyfriend took
You said you read me like a book, but the pages are all torn and frayed

My Chemical Romance... yay

Grood song.. I mean good.. and great... good and great.. (Teen Girls Squad.. http://www.homestarrunner.com) awesome site.

I'm not okay, I promise.

Today I sat out on the beach today reading my Cosmo, drinking a capri sun, and listening to the delightful sounds of Third Eye Blind on my iPod. I didn't go out til about 30 minutes before sunset though cause thats when we got back from taking Hoover to the vet, going to the store, and to a Mexican restaurant.

As soon as the sun sank below the waters a thought popped into my head. "I'm gonna call Michael." So I did and he answered and I guess I was a little surprised. We talked for a little bit.. he asked what i was doing and when I was coming back and stuff.. Small talk. The I got off the phone when I came inside so I could eat something and just lay around really but he told me I could call him later if I wanted to. And I was like "I will but will you answer your phone?" and he told me he hadn't had his phone with him cause its been in his room while his broters and sisters in law and niece and nephews were there.. (Full house at the Martin's place.....)

From there I just finished my Cosmo and played on the Net for a little bit until my sister and Chris came in and then we watched TV (Battle of the Sexes 2) for a little bit. And I decided to call Michael back.

I woke him up. :\ I hate doing that and he told me he didn't feel good so I told him I would just let him go since he didn't feel well. But he said it was okay. And we talked a little bit. He told me he read the blog entry I told him to. [This is the part where I kinda stopped in my tracks] And I was like 'oh really.' He said he liked what it said but didn't like that everyone could read it. I can see how someone wouldn't like that, so I totally understand. And I told him I didn't really expect him to read it and I think he got a little frustrated. He was like "why.. i told you I would." And I just told him I just didnt' think he would.. thats all. But thats all that was said about that. Not a whole lot was said after that but then I said I was gonna go take a shower and go to sleep. Told him I would call him tomorrow and I plan to do just that.

I want what I had back.

Now I'm gonna finish my Budweiser and stagger off the my bed where I shall have a very nice slumber. (P.S. I've only had one.. so no, I'm not drunk.)